trisha kaikilani
attempting to raise the ordinary to the extraordinary
Friday, January 18, 2013
New Beginnings...
I have been stuck in a rut for the last year. I can't seem to get where I want to be in life and not for lack of trying or motivation. When I was offered the position I was nervous and I was very unsure. My amazing family and friends encouraged me to go for it though and supported my choice to move halfway across the world. I have no commitments and nothing holding me to the place I call home. It's only for fourteen months and seriously the opportunity of a lifetime! This new adventure that I am going on will be my very own personal Eat-Pray-Love. I'm sure I will change those verbs to a more fitting and personal title once I get situated there (I would like to keep the Love attached however!).
I personally chose Shanghai because it is known as the Asian New York. I want to experience the fast paced lifestyle on a daily basis and make mini trips to the more quiet and quaint historical locations around China in my spare time. Also, I am a true Cali girl, so the ocean nearby is a plus, not to mention the river that runs through the city. What can I say, I love cities near water!! Disney is paying for my apartment and this will be my very first time living alone with no roommates. I'm not going to lie, I am slightly freaked out about that, but I know I'm going to love having my own space again!
As the days fly by and the 21st looms in front of me, I know I am making the right decision. I love my independence and I am more than willing to experience new cultures. The traveling possibilities alone are a huge reason why this experience is going to be so rewarding for me. I have been to New Zealand, Mexico, the Caribbean, and a majority of the United States, but never as far away as China. I plan to see Beijing, the Great Wall, the Terracotta Army, The Forbidden City, Hong Kong, etc.! The cherry on top of all of that is that I will have a full-time job doing what I love...teaching and for Disney no less!
I will not be writing anymore on this blog, but don't despair, you can now find my weekly (fingers crossed) blog about my adventures in China on my new blogspot, "Disney Days & Shanghai Nights", http://shanghaitrisha.blogspot.com/ .
I will start that blog the week before I leave and then begin updating it once a week. By many reliable sources I have been told that I will not have access to Facebook while I am in China. I hope that I will access a way to do so, but if not, this will be a place that I can write, post pictures and get your comments.
I know that I have gotten to this point in my life so that I can take this opportunity of a lifetime and learn and grow from it. I will miss you all so, so much, but know that I am living a dream of mine and I will be bringing back with me memories, experience, and satisfaction that I conquered something that frightens me...the unknown! I can only hope this is just the beginning of my worldly travels!!!
Until April 2014 (unless if you check out the new blog)...Zai Jian...goodbye!
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Embracing the Sunlight of a New & Improved Life
I had always envisioned a life for myself that just never panned out. In a way, I am thankful for that. I see now, it never would have truly been my happily ever after. The new revision of life I want for myself has more depth, more soul, and more drive. And yes, the revision still includes my prince charming and my happily ever after. I have not given up on my fairy tale romantic notions.
Monday, February 14, 2011
For the Love of Love
I am a pretty independent woman. I by no means need a man to define who I am. I have learned over the last two years that I am perfectly capable of living an amazing life by myself. However, it does get lonely sometimes. I mean, why have this wonderful life, if I don't have someone amazing to share it with. Of course I have the most incredible family and friends a girl could ask for and I am so happy to share my life with them. But, late at night, when I'm alone in my room (randomly LL Cool J's song "I Need Love " just popped into my head, how fitting), I miss having someone close by to just be there with. The intimacy of a committed relationship was always so important to me. Not just for the physical aspects, but for the psychological ones as well. Just knowing I had that someone there, meant the world to me. It's funny because the way I feel about it, I can't even put it into words. I just have the urge to hug someone so tightly to infuse those feelings into them in hopes that they could possibly even try to fathom it. If I even attempted to try and verbalize it, I think I would describe it as being on a rush or a really good high. I can just feel the love swelling up in my heart. I know I probably sound pretty sappy, but that's me. I have love pouring out of me naturally and to me it is one of the best feelings ever. . again, I am the hopeless romantic. I mean, after all, I was the little girl who dreamed of Prince Charming sweeping me off my feet.
A month ago I had dinner with some good friends of mine and it was there that the reflection of my loneliness was cast into the light for me to see. As I looked around the table I realized every single person that was there was either married with a baby, married with a baby on the way, or engaged to someone and then...there was me. I had a minor breakdown of sorts, I felt like everyone was passing me by very quickly, almost in blur and I was standing in the same place in the middle of all it, unable to really move as I watched them. However, I also realized as anxious as I am to move forward as well. I am NOT going to settle or throw myself at some random person just because I have anxiety over starting a family later in life than I had originally planned. My path may not be the one I envisioned, but maybe that's because it's going to be even better than I had initially thought it would be. I like to think there are bigger plans set out for me, than I had set for myself.
Over the last few weeks after that dinner, I did some soul searching. Being single when you're almost 32 is quite different than being single when you're 22. I feel like the opportunities to meet someone are fewer and far between. There are times when I wish I could have stayed 25 forever, but in a cruel twist of fate I've discovered that in my 30's I have really began to understand who I am. I chalk some of that up to the fact that I've been single for a couple of years and some of it to the fact that with age I have become to understand the world around me a little better. I've also began to understand who I am on the inside as well. And who is that person on the inside you ask? Well, it's the same old me, with a few modifications I guess. I'm a little more jaded, a little more cautious now, but only because I know I deserve someone who will love me back the way that I will love them. Despite all of my reservations about finding Mr. Right, I still wear my heart on my sleeve. I guess some things will never change.
Monday, August 31, 2009
The 30 Things I Have Learned Since I Turned 30
1. I truly have the most wonderful family and friends a girl could ask for, but who am I kidding I didn't just learn that, I've known that for a long time!
8. But, on that note, his late night get-togethers when I'm already asleep...not so much!
12. Do not ever mess with cholas...long story.
17. There really are some people who still have a mean girl high school mentality...really? We're 30 for goodness sake!
19. I have learned that Genie Dang is not only the most wonderful best friend ever, but that she does not do well with bee stings and wine tasting at the same time. Apparently it burns...
24. My biological clock is ticking louder and louder each day!
25. I now have a wine tasting addiction (3 times in 5 months....and I can't wait for January!!!)
Sunday, January 25, 2009
The True Woes of an Almost Thirty Year Old Single Gal #1
So that's where I am at for now and as I said it is an ongoing event and so updates will be posted again...soon I am sure. Until then xoxo!